WARM SUMMER NIGHTS.

Warm summer nights.. we wait for them three seasons long and once it arrives it flies by ever so quickly. We try our best to enjoy each and every single second of those days which are supposed to be the best of our lives, yet we still feel like it's never enough. Meanwhile FOMO, the fear of missing out knocks on our door quite frequently to raise awareness that we should move, go out and cherish the days on which the sun decides to shine a little longer than usual. We want to spend time with our loved ones as much as we can, yet we also want to spend it all alone to be able to breathe, to be able to live our lives to the fullest and we get conflicted sometimes. I'm a walking contradiction but I have also learned how to balance it all out at some point. I have learned to let go and let life take its own course. It's not easy to trust the flow when you're a control freak and a perfectionist combined but it is not impossible either. My mind was set to please my people around me but who would please me? That was the question and I now know that this was not important as long as you're in peace with your own soul and know your own pace. Last summer has taught me a lot about patience and forgiveness which I am endlessly grateful for and this summer has taught me that when I accept life the way it is, good things will come your way. I'm not religious, I'm not a believer either yet I believe that the vibes I focus on will notice my needs and serve me with all I desire and truly deserve. This summer has started so well.. it has started out with "a kiss" as Mr. Brightside would chant. It felt like a warm summer night, a soft breeze kissing my skin when it passes by, a dream come true, a prayer that has been heard even though I have never attempted to pray. Warm summer nights gift you with an emotion of feeling home, feeling wanted, feeling like you belong. Warm summer nights make you want to hug the world and radiate positivity from deep within because you have finally found your place after all these battles and hardships having been thrown at you these past few months.. but it was all worth it. Every second of being patience with myself and trusting my instincts have shown that great things really do take time like a fine wine that needs a lot of understanding, care and love united. 

With this I want to say that no matter in which phase or state you're in, it's only temporary and that your life will be great again. I want you to know that it is okay to take your time, to follow your own pace and not to rush things.. ever. Does your "warm summer night" rather feel like some kind of "summertime sadness"? That's okay too. Own your emotions, feel them. You don't have to understand them but I want you to allow them to be felt because suppressing them will never help and I know what I'm talking about, trust me. I used to be the queen of avoiding emotions, the ice queen, it always seemed like nothing bothered me until I would drown in my own darkness when left alone with myself for a little too long. I want you to add good things in your life whether you believe you deserve them or not, because I truly believe we deserve the best, always. Add little elements of happiness to your life whenever you can and one day when you take a step back and take a look at the bigger picture having been built up after all this time, you'll realise that it does not take big steps and sudden success.. it only takes little by little and your warm summer night can occur and unfold every so beautifully whenever you so bravely allow it to. I'll be proud of you, my warm summer nights. 

Love, NCH - cocoroxic.